I take a lot of photos. Fun fact: every photo that appears on this blog is either a photo I took or a photo someone else took (typically with my camera) of me.
I like taking photos.
I’m better about it now… but when I first started this blog, I used to bring my camera with me every single time I left the house. I was terrified something “amazing” (once in a lifetime shot) would happen – and I would just miss it. The only logical solution meant bringing my camera with me everywhere I went, even to the bathroom (because, hey, sometimes public bathrooms have funny signs).
Looking back, I think I was just scared I would miss something.
Back when I started this blog, my future was very uncertain. I was studying abroad in Tokyo – and had been dating this cute Japanese boy for about a year. I knew that when my study abroad finished, I would be returning to America. I didn’t even write about my boyfriend on my blog, because I wasn’t sure what our future was going to look like (and didn’t want my words of devotion coming back to bite me later).
Uncertainty transferred into hundreds of photos every month. Just in case. Just in case I blinked and all of this was magically gone – I wanted something to remember my time in Tokyo by.
I wanted to know that at one time I was loved and in love, living in Tokyo and trying my hardest to be the kind of person I could feel proud of. And even though my boyfriend (jokingly?) told me my photo taking was embarrassing, I didn’t stop.
I didn’t want to stop.
When it came time to pick a URL for this blog, I went with “HowIBecameTexan.com” instead of “TexaninTokyo” because honestly, I didn’t know how much longer I was going to be a Texan in Tokyo.
But then my boyfriend proposed on our one year anniversary, with a engagement ring hidden in my glove. I said yes.
I turned in some paperwork so I could graduate college early (I had the credits, but before Ryosuke came along, I had no incentive to speed up my graduation). We got married. We moved back to Tokyo and Ryosuke started working straight away at a traditional Japanese company.
I still take a lot of pictures… but much less now.
My future is a lot more certain. Ryosuke worked at that company for about a year before he quit to help me manage “Texan in Tokyo” (the blog, YouTube channel, and books) which was a huge leap of faith at the time but we’re both glad he did it.
Now I get to spend every day with the person I love, doing a job I love, living in a country I love.
And last time I asked, I only make my husband mildly uncomfortable with the amount of photos I take.